spot me as the bride's maid! no. im not with the bride. nor the bride's mother
Problems And Stress
looks so serious ha? like the tittle, problems and stress. well, who the hell in this world can avoid those two siblings?? no matter how old are you, actually, the older the bigger and more complicated it might be, and no matter where do you live even under a rock, you may face them! beware and watch out! im here to tell you a slightly bit about how i handling them. the technique is just a piece of cake if you just google. you will find a million results on how to handling stress. but, ikut keperluan diri sendiri. i follow my own rules ;)
1. PRETENDING
this is the best way to hide your problems. this include the smiling step. smiling is the best cure.
2. SPILL IT
if you have problems that thorns you inside, dont keet it for yourself. sure its the safest thing to do but silap hari bulan kau jadik gila sorang-sorang. hence, spill it. but make sure she/he is a good listener and a good secret keeper. dont tell the wrong guy.
3. KEEPING MYSELF BUSY
to temporarily forget the storm that we are going through. keeping busy with friend, family, work or any activities that can make you laugh!
4. AVOID MEETING THE PROBLEM
i mean, kalau tengah down gila tu, please try to avoid yourself from making yourself crushed even more. as an example, your boyfriend just dumping you. what most girls like to do is bukak kotak lama-lama keluarkan gambar kat air terjun yang dia bagi, baca surat cinta lama-lama sambil nangis-nangis, baca balik text dia yang sweet-sweet yang korang simpan dalam folder khas, stalk wall dia tengok ada pompuan lain ke tak, dengar lagu-lagu pastu cakap lagu ni ada kena-mengana dengan i! im trying avoiding this things. hey! i didn't get dump lah -__-
5. DISABLE FACEBOOK CHAT
i dont know what is the purpose of this method. maybe i just dont wanna get disturbed? i also didn't topup my phone whenever i got problems. yeah, i dont wanna get disturbed.
6. EATING
oh! the method that i loved the most! need i say more?
7. FACING IT BEBEH!
you must face the problem no matter what! you cannot run or hide from it. whenever you are ready to speak, solve it. cuma mati yang tak ada penyelesaian. neither its good nor bad, you must take a decision. once, the problem is solve, you no longer need the first method ;)
1. PRETENDING
this is the best way to hide your problems. this include the smiling step. smiling is the best cure.
2. SPILL IT
if you have problems that thorns you inside, dont keet it for yourself. sure its the safest thing to do but silap hari bulan kau jadik gila sorang-sorang. hence, spill it. but make sure she/he is a good listener and a good secret keeper. dont tell the wrong guy.
its good to have someone there for you during arise and meltdown
to temporarily forget the storm that we are going through. keeping busy with friend, family, work or any activities that can make you laugh!
4. AVOID MEETING THE PROBLEM
i mean, kalau tengah down gila tu, please try to avoid yourself from making yourself crushed even more. as an example, your boyfriend just dumping you. what most girls like to do is bukak kotak lama-lama keluarkan gambar kat air terjun yang dia bagi, baca surat cinta lama-lama sambil nangis-nangis, baca balik text dia yang sweet-sweet yang korang simpan dalam folder khas, stalk wall dia tengok ada pompuan lain ke tak, dengar lagu-lagu pastu cakap lagu ni ada kena-mengana dengan i! im trying avoiding this things. hey! i didn't get dump lah -__-
5. DISABLE FACEBOOK CHAT
i dont know what is the purpose of this method. maybe i just dont wanna get disturbed? i also didn't topup my phone whenever i got problems. yeah, i dont wanna get disturbed.
6. EATING
oh! the method that i loved the most! need i say more?
7. FACING IT BEBEH!
you must face the problem no matter what! you cannot run or hide from it. whenever you are ready to speak, solve it. cuma mati yang tak ada penyelesaian. neither its good nor bad, you must take a decision. once, the problem is solve, you no longer need the first method ;)
*baru perasan, every year blog appearance bertukar. siapa ingat lagi blog appearance yang masa mula-mula tahun first dia teror! new year, new blog :D
Page Is Under Construction
heyyo! what do you think of my new blog? its not one of the blog skin ect.ect. i created myself. btw, i dont like to take an advantage on other people's hard work. you know what i mean? frankly, the blogskin is based on other peoples creation. even if they allow you to use it but to put some credit on their effort, but for me its just no genuine. i rather choose to bersusah susah dahulu untuk mendapatkan hasil yang memuaskan ;) but its not ready yet. there are a lot of things to consider and change here especially the header. the header is not suitable for this new design. but i like the layout. cool isn't it? so basicly, it still under construction! till then :D
ini bukan blogskin tau!! hah, teror tak appearance blog aku macam blogskin?? teror tak teror lah kan *kening kening
working is lame while schooling is great
today i met this young couple with two. a daughter and a son. they only three and two years old. they are so cute. their father drove a BMW i-dont-know-what-siries allaaa..yang besar gabak macam mpv tu. their mother seems very young. when i saw her from distance i though she is one of the teenage school girl with her father and her sister. the daughter wanted to buy a cartoon magazine. when her husband step out of the car i heard she called her "bang" laaa... bini orang rupanya. they are very young and have archive succession in their life (based on the car they drove) in my heart just saying, how lucky you are, kids.
Miss Fofular
semalam lepas balik dari mcd i terus pergi kedai my mom. nak short cut lalu lah shopping complex tu kan pastu boleh tembus jumpa lah kedainya. i pon jalan lah laju-laju sambil buat muka tergesa-gesa. tepi-tepi semua! aku nak lalu! tak nampak ke aku rushing ni! dalam time rushing-rushing tu, i ada lah lalu kat sebelah dua orang minah ni. budak lagi. adalah dalam bebaya adik i. pastu diorang tengok muka i. i malas nak layan sape ntah tak kenal >.< i buat bodoh jek lah. buat muka rushing jek. tak tengok muka diorang pon. lepas jek dari dua orang budak tu, i dengar diorang whispering "feyqa maria" im just ==. tak toleh belakang pon teruskan berjalan. sape ntah budak tu. for sure bukan budak sekolah i. ooooo.... tak sangka femes jugak mak ni :3 anyway, just wanna wish you students,
welcome back to school, kids!
welcome 2012
now is the new year's eve and i should be happy and exited to face the new phase in my life which in another 3 months i will be 18! yeay! but im feeling kinda nervous. is that necessary? maybe im just too eager waiting whats next in my absolutely boring life! 2011 has left me so many memories that brings tears and laughs. there are so many dramas in 2011 and not to forget SPM.
in 5 years im spending my time wearing school uniform, there are no other year such 2011. this is my final year. senior year. a totally important year. everything happen on that year! why is that? kenapa tak jadik dari dulu lagi? kenapa?!
but after all the chaotic life, it didn't turn me off. my grades are getting better and better. im finally can erase the G mark on my report card forever. that is huge. on trial lately, i got 8 as. alhamdulillah ;) and i wish it will add up to 10 on my slip. amin.
there are a lot of things happen before trial and it grew bigger upon the most important event of the year which is the SPM. what else it could be if it not boys? im hardly avoiding myself from this creature from the beginning. but wey, im human too. otherwise, im a girl. kayu pon ada yang lembut jugak contohnya herbaceous plant. i think im ready to share about them here. ok. let me start form the fist one. bukan first boyfriend pon ok! lets just call them by the alphabet ok? that is cuter ;)
mr A. he is my absolutely mr.firs-time. the first man i ride on a motorbike with. he is the first guy who teach me how to love and to be loved. he is the first guy who can reach and melted my grumbly heart. hes the first guy who touch and hold my hand. (ok. this is embarrassing since no one had hold my hand yet!) not to forget, he is the reason why i came to kampung lukut for the first time. there are a place in my place where people called it kampung lukut. and he lives there. and a lot more other first time. i just fell for him because the way he treated me or the other girls is so sweet and nice. he is a bit Casanova type but it doesn't matter. its just the way hes flirt. but it doesn't last long for us because something came up and it is the matter of friendship. sometimes, friend is more valuable than a lover. i really respect that. but i think its just can work out between us if we give it a shot and do not care about other people feelings. but no!
mr. B. during the meltdown and heart-crushing moment of me and mr.A, there it came the mr.B saving me and try to forget my feeling towards A. B is completely different from A. if A likes to play with fascinating words and always flirt with me but B is so caring and understanding. i can talk to him about everything, anything at any time.he always there when im down and when i needed someone. he cares about me so much. he remember everything i said to him even the tiny craps. i am forget what i told him but he can repeat everything. thats what i love about him. but it just didn't work between us. in relationship, you cannot underestimate the power of chemistry. one day he can be sweet and loving but the next day he can be such annoying. sometimes im getting bored with him and i left him without a word for weeks and then i started to miss him back. then i realize, it better for me to step out first before something wrong is going to happen. this relationship cannot work if its only on one behalf. im afraid if i cannot give a full commitment on our relationship (if its really happening) btw, i found him more suit for a perfect husband rather than perfect boyfriend. HAHA
mr.C. i knew him before i knew A and B. since then we were being such a great pals. i can talk almost everything with him. we were like bruno mars's song "count on me" yeah. i love being friends with him^^ until then, he proposed me and tell me that he likes me. sick! i thought he is just joking and im also yeah yeah me too haha. then suddenly, "im serious babe. im not joking about this thing" im like :O like i usually did, i rejected him. i said that im not ready he totally understands me. and also i asked him, are you ready to be my first boyfriend? then he replied, always ready but im not ready to be the first one who let you down. hmmm... till now, he still try me and never give up. i saw his determination and willpower. but i have this tiny little problem. saya susah nak percaya kat orang. you cannot easily convince me by just saying it. you must show it. that is why its really hard for me to just open my heart and let anyone in. the moment i started to feel confident with him, started to trust his words and wanna give him a chance, and suddenly he blew it away. i saw him flirting with his ex. ok. im not taking a risk here.
mr. D. this guy came out of nowhere. like suddenly he pop up and make my life a complete disaster. first time i saw him and i like him instantly. but when i get to know him further, oh come on! i cant stand you any longer! just imagine someone who text you every hour just to tell hai you. rindulah! call you at 2 in the morning to say nothing? force you to say i miss you i love you at the end of your conversation? always flirting like calling you baby and sayang that is totally yucks if you had no feeling for them at all! sayang can be acceptable if there are sparks in your heart but this feeling is absolutely nothing rather than yucks! gosh! seriously, this one is suitable for desperaters of you just wanna have fun and get out of a sudden bored. hiewhiew~ and he also propose me right before mr.D. guess what did i do?
mr.E. he is one of my friends. we befriended since year six. we have being a great friend to fight and tease and HAHA. sometimes i took an advantage towards him to find any secrets. he willing to tell me everything. it is so fun. until this year. suddenly he showed an interest with me. im just cool and acted like nothing had happen. im absolutely fine. until a one fine day, we just texting. and texting. and texting. and he started going out of path. mumbling and rumbling and a proposal came out. blah! it is totally unacceptable! we are friends dude! dont ruin this tie just because of your stupid feelings. hah! forget it. lets just be friends. anyway, its kinda awkward though.
mr.F. he is also my classmates. like mr A, and B. he is the reason why me and mr. A decided not to continue our interesting relationship. haha! nak jaga hati kawan. they said that he likes me long before but i just knew it this year. he is not the one who you will instantly like for the first impression. even after a several years of impression i dont thing you will like him. he is so annoying. none of my girls like him. he is not a bad guy but he can be bad on certain occasion. but he also a human and have heart. no matter how bad the person is, he still a human being and we should treat him like one. that is my finest principle. i dont have feelings towards him anyway. he just have a crush on me and i appreciate that ;)
mr.G. my classmate either and one of my best guy friend. we are friend! you know that? friend? a guy friend which i can treated like a girl best friend. i can tell him about A, about B and sometimes F. hahaha. but one thing i didn't know at all is he likes me too. the moment he tell me this i didn't feel anything. its just kinda felt appreciated and a bit moved. btw, its a long time ago. back in form 4. its just an old crappy crush. but i does not stop at there. a few days after that, he came clean to me saying that the feelings is still there. he tried to erase it but he cant. gosh! i was like damn! i tell you everything and now i feel like shit! he said, its ok. its not your fault. its not like something you know. then i said, but we were cool right? we were friends. and yeah. we cool. for me. i dont really know how he feels. what i know is, i feel bad T__T
mr.H. i just knew him. he is a friend of mine. i get along with him very quickly because we are like a crazy bro's! we are really crazy together. i like being friends with him. just friends. i can see how he tried to impress me. to show his real feeling for me but im really sorry. IF there are any feelings for me in your heart, im sorry i cannot deliver it back. really really really sorry.
thats it. i learn that mencintai tak semestinya memiliki. redha itu ikhlas, pasrah itu menyerah.im absolutely redha on A and pasrah on B and C. hahaha. the one that i really love is still out there. happy with his beloved girlfriend. i cannot reach him. although i can but i refuse to do so.i dont want to be happy on other girls's tears. that is not a genuine love. i love this guy for such a long time. i tried to forget him but three years is not enough. when i saw him, there still a sparks in my heart. i can feel it although im always pretending like nothing happen. i am very sure about this one that i love him. if he propose me, i will not take even a second to think. but is all just a dream. if he happy, im also happy because im happy to see the one i love happy ;)
so that is 2011. whats on 2012 is still a mystery...
in 5 years im spending my time wearing school uniform, there are no other year such 2011. this is my final year. senior year. a totally important year. everything happen on that year! why is that? kenapa tak jadik dari dulu lagi? kenapa?!
but after all the chaotic life, it didn't turn me off. my grades are getting better and better. im finally can erase the G mark on my report card forever. that is huge. on trial lately, i got 8 as. alhamdulillah ;) and i wish it will add up to 10 on my slip. amin.
there are a lot of things happen before trial and it grew bigger upon the most important event of the year which is the SPM. what else it could be if it not boys? im hardly avoiding myself from this creature from the beginning. but wey, im human too. otherwise, im a girl. kayu pon ada yang lembut jugak contohnya herbaceous plant. i think im ready to share about them here. ok. let me start form the fist one. bukan first boyfriend pon ok! lets just call them by the alphabet ok? that is cuter ;)
mr A. he is my absolutely mr.firs-time. the first man i ride on a motorbike with. he is the first guy who teach me how to love and to be loved. he is the first guy who can reach and melted my grumbly heart. hes the first guy who touch and hold my hand. (ok. this is embarrassing since no one had hold my hand yet!) not to forget, he is the reason why i came to kampung lukut for the first time. there are a place in my place where people called it kampung lukut. and he lives there. and a lot more other first time. i just fell for him because the way he treated me or the other girls is so sweet and nice. he is a bit Casanova type but it doesn't matter. its just the way hes flirt. but it doesn't last long for us because something came up and it is the matter of friendship. sometimes, friend is more valuable than a lover. i really respect that. but i think its just can work out between us if we give it a shot and do not care about other people feelings. but no!
mr. B. during the meltdown and heart-crushing moment of me and mr.A, there it came the mr.B saving me and try to forget my feeling towards A. B is completely different from A. if A likes to play with fascinating words and always flirt with me but B is so caring and understanding. i can talk to him about everything, anything at any time.he always there when im down and when i needed someone. he cares about me so much. he remember everything i said to him even the tiny craps. i am forget what i told him but he can repeat everything. thats what i love about him. but it just didn't work between us. in relationship, you cannot underestimate the power of chemistry. one day he can be sweet and loving but the next day he can be such annoying. sometimes im getting bored with him and i left him without a word for weeks and then i started to miss him back. then i realize, it better for me to step out first before something wrong is going to happen. this relationship cannot work if its only on one behalf. im afraid if i cannot give a full commitment on our relationship (if its really happening) btw, i found him more suit for a perfect husband rather than perfect boyfriend. HAHA
mr.C. i knew him before i knew A and B. since then we were being such a great pals. i can talk almost everything with him. we were like bruno mars's song "count on me" yeah. i love being friends with him^^ until then, he proposed me and tell me that he likes me. sick! i thought he is just joking and im also yeah yeah me too haha. then suddenly, "im serious babe. im not joking about this thing" im like :O like i usually did, i rejected him. i said that im not ready he totally understands me. and also i asked him, are you ready to be my first boyfriend? then he replied, always ready but im not ready to be the first one who let you down. hmmm... till now, he still try me and never give up. i saw his determination and willpower. but i have this tiny little problem. saya susah nak percaya kat orang. you cannot easily convince me by just saying it. you must show it. that is why its really hard for me to just open my heart and let anyone in. the moment i started to feel confident with him, started to trust his words and wanna give him a chance, and suddenly he blew it away. i saw him flirting with his ex. ok. im not taking a risk here.
mr. D. this guy came out of nowhere. like suddenly he pop up and make my life a complete disaster. first time i saw him and i like him instantly. but when i get to know him further, oh come on! i cant stand you any longer! just imagine someone who text you every hour just to tell hai you. rindulah! call you at 2 in the morning to say nothing? force you to say i miss you i love you at the end of your conversation? always flirting like calling you baby and sayang that is totally yucks if you had no feeling for them at all! sayang can be acceptable if there are sparks in your heart but this feeling is absolutely nothing rather than yucks! gosh! seriously, this one is suitable for desperaters of you just wanna have fun and get out of a sudden bored. hiewhiew~ and he also propose me right before mr.D. guess what did i do?
mr.E. he is one of my friends. we befriended since year six. we have being a great friend to fight and tease and HAHA. sometimes i took an advantage towards him to find any secrets. he willing to tell me everything. it is so fun. until this year. suddenly he showed an interest with me. im just cool and acted like nothing had happen. im absolutely fine. until a one fine day, we just texting. and texting. and texting. and he started going out of path. mumbling and rumbling and a proposal came out. blah! it is totally unacceptable! we are friends dude! dont ruin this tie just because of your stupid feelings. hah! forget it. lets just be friends. anyway, its kinda awkward though.
mr.F. he is also my classmates. like mr A, and B. he is the reason why me and mr. A decided not to continue our interesting relationship. haha! nak jaga hati kawan. they said that he likes me long before but i just knew it this year. he is not the one who you will instantly like for the first impression. even after a several years of impression i dont thing you will like him. he is so annoying. none of my girls like him. he is not a bad guy but he can be bad on certain occasion. but he also a human and have heart. no matter how bad the person is, he still a human being and we should treat him like one. that is my finest principle. i dont have feelings towards him anyway. he just have a crush on me and i appreciate that ;)
mr.G. my classmate either and one of my best guy friend. we are friend! you know that? friend? a guy friend which i can treated like a girl best friend. i can tell him about A, about B and sometimes F. hahaha. but one thing i didn't know at all is he likes me too. the moment he tell me this i didn't feel anything. its just kinda felt appreciated and a bit moved. btw, its a long time ago. back in form 4. its just an old crappy crush. but i does not stop at there. a few days after that, he came clean to me saying that the feelings is still there. he tried to erase it but he cant. gosh! i was like damn! i tell you everything and now i feel like shit! he said, its ok. its not your fault. its not like something you know. then i said, but we were cool right? we were friends. and yeah. we cool. for me. i dont really know how he feels. what i know is, i feel bad T__T
mr.H. i just knew him. he is a friend of mine. i get along with him very quickly because we are like a crazy bro's! we are really crazy together. i like being friends with him. just friends. i can see how he tried to impress me. to show his real feeling for me but im really sorry. IF there are any feelings for me in your heart, im sorry i cannot deliver it back. really really really sorry.
thats it. i learn that mencintai tak semestinya memiliki. redha itu ikhlas, pasrah itu menyerah.im absolutely redha on A and pasrah on B and C. hahaha. the one that i really love is still out there. happy with his beloved girlfriend. i cannot reach him. although i can but i refuse to do so.i dont want to be happy on other girls's tears. that is not a genuine love. i love this guy for such a long time. i tried to forget him but three years is not enough. when i saw him, there still a sparks in my heart. i can feel it although im always pretending like nothing happen. i am very sure about this one that i love him. if he propose me, i will not take even a second to think. but is all just a dream. if he happy, im also happy because im happy to see the one i love happy ;)
so that is 2011. whats on 2012 is still a mystery...
90210
just now i watch 90210 back to back episodes and basically this is my favourite show for the moment. know why? because its kinda reminds me of my everyday life with my best friends. ada pasang surutnya. we care about each other to much until at one point its all getting complicated and misunderstood and yeah.. we fight about it.
but at the end of the day, i know deep down we still love each other and will be a lot of miserable if one of us left. at least i felt it. i miss you guys a lot :'( i dont really care how much the pain is because tomorrow it will be gone. i love you guys so much. if you guys dont feel the same way, its ok. i understand because i have done so much trouble before. nobody is perfect but im working so hard to find some tiny little place in your heart.
sometimes i felt left out and doesn't belong but i guess its just my instinct and emotion and i know it was not true. hopefully. i believe everything happen for reason. i know its quite lame to be synchronize our life as the fabulous girls of 90210 but hey, we're still hot anyway! :P aryna, we have been friends since year six, and i hope it last for another 7 years! amin..
im finish high school! for real :D
im finish my school years probably a few weeks ago but hey, IMMA TO LAZY TO SIGN UP THE GOOGLE ACCOUNT TO OPEN MA BLOG RATHER THAN FACEBOOK THAT I DON'T HAVE TO SIGN UP BECAUSE I NEVER LOG OUT! then today i accidently sign up and wallah! here i am!
im finally graduated from high school with honour and respect :D
we are finally free!
this picture right here was took right after our final day of spm which is bio paper. and this day is remarkable as our final day of school years. although we were so happy and beyond exited like my friend back there for not so called budak skolah anymore, but the memories and scandalous dramas of high school is remain forever :')
before "the day" actually came, there's a lot of drama happens in my saki-baki kehidupan di alam persekolahan. most of it involving the "L" word. hmmm... i dont know whether i should or should not post it here for general viewing :\ ok. i'll think about it later.
i was not involve in so many activities recently. yeah... as a free high school leaver you guys probably think im free to go out and have fun with my friends watching movies karaoke lepak mamak but nahhhh!!! my life was not as easy as that! im spending my time in front of the tv, laptops, guitar and mixer. if that stuff can talk im sure they will be saying this "hey, are't you dont have anything to do besides spending time with us? we were ok and appreciated it but in another 3 months you will be 18! go out and have a life!"
yup! thats me. T__T im thinking about working but nahhhh... im gonna get my licence firs ;) for now on. imma proud unemployed.
one step ahead
feyqa maria is sitting for spm. please pray for her success. all that she ever wanted was just 10 as. may she get what she dreamed for.
....amin....
she will be back soon.....
Antara BBQ, Bola dan Parti Liar
last week my beloved class 5SC ICT/al-farabi run a bbq party at nini's house. initially, we would like to do this party at my house but one of my neighbors organized a kenduri doa selamat to welcome the upcoming fasting month. actually, it was a suitable night to make a kenduri like that because ramadhan is coming soon and it was a friday night. yeah, and we decided to make a bbq party. a wild one.
the are so many incident behind it. we have to invite wan which is not from our class just because he owns a dslr and popo can slept at his house. fyi, popo fly from the hostel. sorry wan. tak berniat pon :P
so, enjoy the moments!
the are so many incident behind it. we have to invite wan which is not from our class just because he owns a dslr and popo can slept at his house. fyi, popo fly from the hostel. sorry wan. tak berniat pon :P
so, enjoy the moments!
bola telah manjadi drama air mata kerana malaysia kalah :'(
tarian kipas oleh popo dan ikha
(OO)
gambar skema mesti ada
kejap!! belum goal lagi!!
party~
mynn ni spoil la!
scene yang berunsur pari liar:
whatever it is, it was an amazing bbq party and can we did it again?? can we can we can we??
i l<3ve my class!! wish you guys all the best for spm and i hope for 10's for all of us! amin..
i had the best time of my life although harimau malaya kalah dengan singa. oh! forget to mention, happy birthday amin and kibul! best main baling-baling tepung. i went home at 12.30 mid night. abah didn't mind at all maybe because this is the first time i went home late and he knows we had a bbq. sure it will be late.
thankx wan! kalau boboy tak ade, gambar ni semua tak ada
